Friday, January 28, 2005

The Power of My Pen

The Power of My Pen

I turned a man I do not like
into an ox.

I pushed him down a ravine
and said he'd be better off
in life as
a belt.

Low.

Evil.

Fantastic.

I have the power of the gods
at my hands.

Zeus is powerless,
unless he gets pissed

and the lightning hurts more
than my inky remark.

But the "do me a favour"
MUST be stopped!

Though it is funny, my choice
of an animal for this shell of a human.

Because all that comes
from his mouth is an
animalistic groan.

Or mumblings if i am lucky.

The mooing may be just as persistant,
but at least i can tune that out.

And legally serve him as dinner.

Funeral

how painful when
you want to let go
but can't.

not because you should be strong
not because of shame
and not because your
heart's made of stone.

but because your nose
just hurts too much.

The funeral home
of all place
should have the best tissues.

Moisture rich and full of lotion
so when you see the angel
lying on the satin pillow

You can wipe your
nose and eyes and
not feel that it isn't

just your heart
that's bleeding.

On the Path

I am writing this on a roll of paper towels
at my job.

Hello, Jack Kerouac!
The neverending glory of the stream of consciousness that
will never stop..

I saw that manuscript. On the Road. It really was
on the road.

Travelling from library to library.
Who would see it? Who would want to?

Apparently, i would. And i did.
It stretched from one end of the library to
the other.

A medieval parchment. Only a bit more recent.

The sporadic souls in the grand room were
all in the exact
same postition.
As if they were dancers in a ballet
with choreography made
especially for them.

Parallel to the manuscript
that was encased in glass
were their bodies.
Lined up in random order
their heads turned to the side.

My dog looks at me this way and
sometimes i feel like she understands me
and tilts her head to the side.
She really looks kind of intelligent.

The same, are we just appearing intelligent
with our hands folded behind our backs and
our bodies at an 80 degree angle?

jack, Wouldn't you be proud?

Ryan...Ugh.

The Cashier

He sites like The Thinker
Rodin would be proud.
His shoulders hunched foward
in obnoxious agony.
it is not the weight of the world on his shoulders.
it is hell pulling him home.

he is as far from noble as
Ramen noodes are from
smoked salmon and caviar.
New clothes will not save you
and Henry Higgins cannot cure you of your simple tongue and speech.

If you were to find salvation in
an education
you still could not escape your overly simple nature.
It is your shoulders that give you away.

A bit more rounded and you'd be an ox.
Suitable only for hard, manual labour
in the filth and the mud.

it is cold and your hooves will lose
all traction as you slide down
the ravine.

Even as you groan for help,
no one will rescue you.
They will spit on you as they walk by
chatting with each other
that you would have made a better
belt.

Sensual

Sensual

swelling
pulsing
Love.

rhythm
beauty
Love.

pain
pleasure
Love.

pounding
gentle
Love.

Music.

Hometown (in class)

Hometown

What is it about Greenfield that makes people stay?
Generations of people who move houses
but they are only a few blocks away.

Is it the idea of a family as being planted
that strikes people?

Giant Sequoias of families in this one town of green.
Or white, if you get what I mean.

Roots that are so deep that you get lost in the earth.
You travel on the back of an ant,
which is acceptable,
(they often carry heavy burdens)
and slowly decend the roots.

There's my cousin. Add 15 more.
There's grandpa. And grandma.
But she's beating him with a broom.
And step-grandpa is there too.

Deeper we crawl as I see relatives
whose pictures I know
and I can guess a name
but it is all a mystery.

What is it about my house
that people love so much?
Anther root in the tree?
Over 150 years old, and
"so beautiful"?

Why don't they leave?
Why come back after college?
Why marry the high school
sweetheart?

Perhaps it is the home they
cannot leave.
It is the
unfortunate
gold standard.
the Good Ol' Days.

And the good ol' days are far and gone
the "national road" that runs through our town
And the settling of mighty Greenfield
Must've been great.

Imagine the dirt highway that runs through the center of town
Running east and west with horses pulling mail and milk carts
and mud that dries on the ladies' boots.

Imagine the money in Greenfield Banking Co.
with its two story facade facing the courthouse
because money and politics would never coexist.

Imagine the courthouse. Its gothic glory
rising like a flag's mast
proclaiming justice for all of Hancock county
as the iron bells of the clock
echo time for everyone.

Imagine the years going by and the changes they bring.
As the dirty gives way to brick on
Ol' US 40
and horses phased out to "farms" where
children are told they'll have more room to run.

Imagine the Depression. As the gas boom ends
and they money is gone.
The terror as lines grow out of the bank
and another forms out of the courthouse.
And the backs of the last two people in line
are back
to back.

Imagine prom on the roof of the building
next to the bank.

Imagine Pickett's Hardware and
in the era of gum for a dollar,
in one visit with dad to get a few nails
and a single nickel, a handful of gum
spills forward.

Imagine the trees that started so small
and must now be cut down
because nobody expected
they'd last.

Imagine my family.
Five generations in this town
All of importance.
And the shoes to fill.

Imagine the disappointment when I leave.

Because Pickett's has closed forever.
The bank is now an ATM.
The new State Road is on the interstate
and Starbucks has invaded my safety.

The Different Stars & Suns

The Different Stars & Suns

The yellow orb in the sky, so familiar
Now there were two as
the neon yellow softball few into
the air

Already abused by the alluminum
bats of others
It sailed through the air
as graceful as a rocket.

The crash as it hit the tree
was deafening
The breathless anticipation of a homerun
fulfilled.

The first home run, and a momento now
to excite, inspire, and remind.
Her own personal sun.

Memory

ory

The needles stick out
reminding me
of days when all were together
and happy

The needles beckon and i
go to them
pick them up
and laugh.

I twist my hands around
them
and wish all could see me.

I turn the needles on
myself
Then gently put them
back
with the yarn.

Getting back to ANOTHER blog...

So i figure i'll at least use this blog for something. why not put the poetry i've been writing at work on this thing? it's all horrible, but i don't care. So here we go! an entry a poem!